Sunday, August 19, 2007


How does one define freindship?? I think the simple definition is when people know all about you, but like you anyway. I think you need freinds as much as you need your food. I don't mean fake freinds. Real freinds. I remember back in the days when i used to think that it was fine being alone. I felt that i could take on everything by myself, & i convinced myself that i was fine being alone. Without freinds. Not that i did not want freinds but i did not know who to trust. You get me? It made me feel sad. I later realised that by sharing some of my burdens & anger with real freinds, i feel way much better. I know that my problem have not been solved but it just made me feel better inside.

You know, when i was younger, i used to think i was a quiet person cos i had no one to talk to. I read a lot of books & i felt better reading them. In one of the 1st posts i wrote when i started this blog, i talked about the issue of RACISM. In the post, i mentioned that i went to a girls private school the first time i came to school in England. That was were my loneliness began. Back at home in Nigeria, i had loads of frreinds from my old school & people always wanted to hang around with me. I was "Popular". I put it in quote cos i hate that word.

So, it was a change for me when i came here cos first of all i was surrounded my loads of white faces & they were so different from me. We were brought up in different ways. What i found funny, they didn't. What they found funny, i did not find funny. Lucky i had a room to myself in the dorms so i would always lock myself in the room. I hated school because i could not fit in. I was always chosen last for anything. I felt at first that it was because there were not laods of blacks there (it was the countryside), but later i changed my mind. They just didn't like me. I didn't like them too. I still keep in contact with some of the girls (who i could stand then). Not necessarily because i like them but because we do not know what the future brings.

Things have changed alot for me. Now i'm all loud & bubbly & people are always like to me "i thought you were quiet" & i would be like "yeah i thought so too". I talk so much that my friends tell me "ok, shut up". This is all because i kept so many things inside me & felt that i could combat loneliness but now i know bettter. It took time for me to get to where i am now, but i'm happy i've got there. I've got amazing freinds who i know are real & would be there for me. God knew that Adam would be lonely if he was alone, so he gave him Eve.

Yeah i have fights with my freinds but thats what freinds do; fight and then make up. If you have a freind that does not tell you the truth, they are not real. Being "REAL" is very important. If you have a good freind, cherish that person/people. Freinds are a gift from God.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Hey guyz! sorry i've been out for so long. Missed blogging alot. Will be back very soon with new updates!! Thanks to everybody who wished me a Happy belated birthday! & to Ugo who kept telling me to update, i will be back like i said with new updates!! Take care people! *Mwaah*
xxx Chidi xxx